The secret to happiness is not in doing what one likes to do, but in liking what one has to do

I`m happy, not? Yes?? Not sure, cause I don`t think I`m getting what I wanted... After met with Ms world of my mind, my life starts to get pressure or relax?? All I know is, I just wanna spend time with someone I`m really trusted and can spend time talking with.... Which one is the perfect match for this job?? I`m not hiring anyone to get paid or what, I just want a person can really sit down and listens to what I`m crapping around.... Sighs~* Felt like being ignored and became a life-suit again... But this time only it gets better than the last one.... The 5 "C"s, Certificate, Credit Cards, Cashes, Cars, Condos, it really hard for me to succeed... Cause I`m not born from a wealthy family background, the only thing I can do is count on myself for getting what i wanted.... Hopefully she`ll understand and know what I`m looking for.... She`s been acting strangely, don`t know much about her yet since still just nearly a month. So, I used my mind, used my feeling, but in the end, i still gets an empty mind in my head.... Zzz... I`m really dissapointed with myself, since the day I finish my 2ndary studies, no one really actually askes what I need and don`t even made me felt they care. Till now, I`m working in Acer Highpoint, nearly get myself dead for having breads as my lunch for 2 month for just to get my PAY CHEQUE ... Although its quite torturing, but i know i safe it for a reason, just wanna make my future with my other half gets a better lifestyle. Ish~ She told me that now is not the time for it, but she did`t rejects... So should I continue?? Take a break, pause the game, or just go turn off the main switch just to let it go?? I think I`m not ready for it too, cause I`m not the playing someones relationship kind of guy... I just wants to find a mate that really can sit down, be true, be caring for each of us, honest, trust, don`t care about what problem we are having just to solve it together... I`ll feel enough.... Maybe i`m still got some homeworks to study on her, so, hopefully this time will pay off... Only time will tells, and its getting late, I`m working tomorrow. So till then... To Be Continued~~~