~Brainless Love Story~

I did`t mean to hurt you, I don`t know why I don`t have any fear on doing those things... Ya, you were right, I`ve said it many times, but none I really did... I`m really afraid after every-time finish spending time with you...Many things cannot been say with word nor actions... How can someone let the one they love know they really regretting? There are so many things left to say, but I don`t know how to mention with words..... Really should give me some time to cool down and thinking what I`ve did in those moments... Really scary, no more.... I want no more~

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

The secret to happiness is not in doing what one likes to do, but in liking what one has to do

I`m happy, not? Yes?? Not sure, cause I don`t think I`m getting what I wanted... After met with Ms world of my mind, my life starts to get pressure or relax?? All I know is, I just wanna spend time with someone I`m really trusted and can spend time talking with.... Which one is the perfect match for this job?? I`m not hiring anyone to get paid or what, I just want a person can really sit down and listens to what I`m crapping around.... Sighs~* Felt like being ignored and became a life-suit again... But this time only it gets better than the last one.... The 5 "C"s, Certificate, Credit Cards, Cashes, Cars, Condos, it really hard for me to succeed... Cause I`m not born from a wealthy family background, the only thing I can do is count on myself for getting what i wanted.... Hopefully she`ll understand and know what I`m looking for.... She`s been acting strangely, don`t know much about her yet since still just nearly a month. So, I used my mind, used my feeling, but in the end, i still gets an empty mind in my head.... Zzz... I`m really dissapointed with myself, since the day I finish my 2ndary studies, no one really actually askes what I need and don`t even made me felt they care. Till now, I`m working in Acer Highpoint, nearly get myself dead for having breads as my lunch for 2 month for just to get my PAY CHEQUE ... Although its quite torturing, but i know i safe it for a reason, just wanna make my future with my other half gets a better lifestyle. Ish~ She told me that now is not the time for it, but she did`t rejects... So should I continue?? Take a break, pause the game, or just go turn off the main switch just to let it go?? I think I`m not ready for it too, cause I`m not the playing someones relationship kind of guy... I just wants to find a mate that really can sit down, be true, be caring for each of us, honest, trust, don`t care about what problem we are having just to solve it together... I`ll feel enough.... Maybe i`m still got some homeworks to study on her, so, hopefully this time will pay off... Only time will tells, and its getting late, I`m working tomorrow. So till then... To Be Continued~~~

~A Memorable Sweet 18 day~

It starts with a mind that thinks "Haiz... no party, no celebration, no friends gathering....Not even a single wish from the one who i suspected to give me. It would be totally different than other people compared to mine, they get it, I can`t....". Until this day... Firstly, it begins with a normal family dinner with all my uncles, aunts and cousins too. But not all of them... Right after the foods were served, the truth of the main purpose for this dinner had showed, that is because of my cousin sis suddenly came back from UK, owh, what a surprise, everyone there were shocked especially my 4th aunt. She absolutely have no idea that her daughter will come back from UK from all of a sudden... Then tears drops down from her face, may be she was too happy about it, I don`t know?? Cause I`m also shocked when I saw her...

The foods were totally and obviously too many and everyone can`t even finish it, so right before the "party" ends, my mum does what she likes the most... TaPao... XD Just when she finish packing everything, suddenly everyone starts to sing birthday song... "原来", my mum and my cousin sis bought me a birthday cake ahhh..... Everyone starts to yell "大个仔咯,大个仔咯", and my dad starts to talk funny crapping... The scene were really joyful, I`m very shocked, again, and happy too... During that time, in my mind, there were too many things that cannot be pronouns by words, no matter happiness or sadness... Everything.... Haiz, nowadays, I don`t have enough time to write my blog to share my feelings, even when I`m in the mood of it, my eyes starts to feel tired cause working does really been exhausting me... Maybe I can edit this again later on... Till then....

Thanks Jasmine Sis, Esther sis and my Mum too....